So neutral that i feel blue. Really really blue. I don’t know why i feel this way either. This time, nothing happened. The kind of blue where you don’t want to talk and you want to shut the world out but feel even more blue when you see what you’re missing out. And then want to shut the world out even more and the cycle goes on. And i’m not sleep-deprived, not even close. Sigh what’s wrong! Ok, occasionally something funny happens and i laugh, but after that the feeling returns and i’m back to swimming in that big vast blue-ness. But i’ll keep swimming, so that i don’t drown. I don’t want to be kept down by this.