can you sense my dread?

hi i’m interested in giving up my neopets account and hopefully stop playing… and restarting/reviving/re-creating accounts everytime to fill up time. haiya actually i can just approach huishan directly. hoho i made 1 million np these hols. hehehe, done it with the help of my prev account, which i forgot the username and password. well, that’s something i planned to achieve this hols and i’ve done it. 🙂

other than that, my mind is at peace hehe. lol cos there’s nth else to do. i think i’m becoming or alr am a female otaku too. went out for a while just now and the moment i stepped out of the block i’m like, omg so bright~. actually today’s weather is pretty good, not much sun and lots of wind. hahaha i like the feeling of the wind blowing right into my face. 1, the hair blows back and my face is free from hair. 2, i will imagine myself shooting some magazine cover lololololol.

there’s something i’m dreading though. so much that i even dreamt of it last night. somehow, it feels like a nightmare. :/ btw, i’m guessing the class allocations will be out on xmas/xmas eve/the day after xmas. just guessing hahaha. if i’m right, i will have another career option hehe.

alright i shall go do something meaningful now, and discover what that shld be first.

horoscope for 2010 (aquarius):

This is a transitional year for you, one that allows you to break through the stifling limitations that have continued to restrain your personal growth. The dance between your past and your future reaches a turning point when traditional Saturn opposes progressive Uranus to complete a stressful process that began on November 4, 2008. This long-term cycle between your two key planets is exceptionally significant because it accentuates your paradoxical attraction to absolute truth — and need to rebel against it. You’ve probably become quite adept at releasing suppressed tensions to free yourself from the same structures in your life you initially helped create. But as this opposition repeated on February 5, 2009 and September 15, 2009, the rules that once brought security became increasingly intolerable. Your restlessness is irrepressible now. Something has to give. On April 26, these two planets of freedom and responsibility oppose each other for the fourth time in your financial 2nd House of Personal Resources and 8th House of Shared Resources, rekindling familiar frustrations about money. And although unpredictable Uranus in your 2nd house does suggest fiscal instability, your own self-esteem is your greatest asset — and that, too, may see some ups and downs. Meanwhile, restrictive Saturn in your 8th house indicates that others could add to your financial burdens or impose constraints on your spending.

Both of your ruling planets shift houses this year. Saturn spends time in equitable Libra in your 9th House of Big Ideas, requiring you to rein in grandiose plans and unrealistic thinking. Uranus, meanwhile, enters spontaneous Aries and your 3rd House of Communication to bring surprising changes to your immediate environment, shaking up many day-to-day activities that have become habitual. The fifth and final Saturn-Uranus opposition on July 26 falls across your mental 3rd and 9th houses, shifting the old-versus-new dilemma from material concerns to conceptual conflict. Your struggle now — the culmination of a long journey — is about letting go of outmoded patterns of thought to make room for an entirely different vision of your future.

Opportunistic Jupiter steps into this cosmic tug-of-war by opening previously closed doors when it conjuncts amazing Uranus on June 8, September 18 and January 4, 2011. Still, you can’t just blindly barge ahead, for Jupiter is opposed by karmic Saturn on May 23, August 16 and March 28, 2011, to slow you down — continuing recent themes by forcing you to manage your growth so you don’t lose what you’ve already gained. However, your greatest challenge through all this comes from a gradual spiritual transformation as evolutionary Pluto in your 12th House of Destiny forms intense squares with Saturn’s opposition to Jupiter and Uranus. You’re being invited to a shamanic journey into the mysteries of life, and you cannot refuse the offer. Additionally, eclipses in your 12th house on January 15 and June 26 can raise the stakes, suggesting that you embark on a metaphysical quest to find the answers to your real-world problems. Rather than simply seeking practical solutions, your underlying task is to integrate your everyday life with your soul’s true purpose.


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